Free Writing

If I had to choose I would like to rework my Solution Paper the most. It was my weakest so it is therefore the one I want to fix. Something weird happened today. I was in my philosophy class and we were discussing regret. I made the point that I personally try to have no regrets because I am happy with the person that I am. If I could go back and fix something that I regretted doing then I would not be the same person. But then I thought that it sucks that I have very few regrets. Maybe I am just a sheltered person with a perfect life but that's not true. By this point I had realized that I regretted not having regrets. But you can't fix a regret about not having something or having a lack of something. Which reminds me of something cool I learned about a long time ago. Darkness is not a something it is a lack of something with that something being light. But light isn't just the visible spectrum we can see it also extends into radio waves and radiation. Radio waves are a form of light. How odd is that? How amazing would it be if our eyes could actually detect all the forms of light. How many senses are out there that we don't have. Sight, hearing, touch, taste, and smell. What else could there be. I just described upgrading our sense of sight. But that is just upgrading a sense that we already have, what if there are sense we don't even know about. It's something I can't even comprehend personally. I like eating lunch before this class. It makes me feel much more energized and awake. I usually don't eat breakfast so I am all zombie like in the morning. I have never been a morning person but maybe it's because I don't eat breakfast. They call people like me insomniacs and night owls. Night owl reminds me of a character from "The Watchmen." I personally am tired of having the same dream every night. It's just repetitive. I start out in a cave. But the cave is dark yet I can see. Maybe I have upgraded eyes...but that's besides the point. Anyway I'm in this cave and a "tinker bell" light comes up and whizzes around my head. Then it floats down one of those endless holes that caves have and naturally I jump after it. So now I'm falling in complete darkness chasing this tinker bell light. After what seems like ages we fall into this wide open room of the cave. And at the bottom of this room is a huge underground lake. The light falls into the water and naturally I follow it. But then once I'm submerged in the water I hear this odd ringing that sound like one of those whale songs. I realize that the sound is coming from the tinker bell light and I start to swim towards it. The sound gets louder and much higher pitched as I get closer. Then once I nearly have my hand around it I wake up. Soooooo annoying. I have this dream almost every night and I despise the it. Maybe the light is trying to teach me something and if one day I can grab it I will learn what that something is. Or maybe the light is just a representation of a goal that I will never reach or that my sub-conscience mind thinks I will never reach. All that I know is this dream won't leave me alone and I can't figure it out. It's too bad we can't control what we dream about. Some people think they can and they all their experiences lucid dreaming. I think that they are liars. Thats just me. I'm probably just jealous. I notice people, myself included, get jealous very easily. It's a pretty stupid emotion. Is it an emotion? Or is it a state of being? Who knows? But jealousy is something that just makes me feel immature when I look back at the times when I was jealous. My favorite emotion/state of being is when you listen to really profound music late at night. You get this feeling of wonderment and creativity. Amazing feeling. I can't think of a name for it. Maybe it's nostalgia. But that doesn't seem to fit. One day I will coin a phrase for this mind state and I will be awarded a medal. Silly goals. Maybe this is what the light in my dream is supposed to represent. My goal of coining a word for a state of mind that probably already has a name and then hoping against hope that I will get a medal. Weird phrase, "hoping against hope" is. How can you hope against something such as hope? Would you be hoping for the opposite of hope, despair. Then you are still hoping. Overall I think this free writing thing went well. I just wrote what came to mind and I even Punctuated and used grammar correctly! Hooray for me!!